I try to keep things on the blog light and airy, and all about photos that make you feel something… whether its happy, silly, somber, or emotional. Today, however, I feel the need to get a little more personal. This week has been a rough one. I have been taking on a slew of life’s pressures and challenges and its only Wednesday! These stresses include everything from deadlines, to miss-behaving children, to insecurities, to household chores. Usually when it rains, it pours around here and I definitely needed a big umbrella this week (get it) . It is ironic that all of this has been coming into play during my “30 days of Thankfulness” series because , to be honest, I have been struggling to find things I am thankful for the last couple days. I think (or I know!) that when you ask God to give you a certain trait… such as a thankful heart or patience etc…He always finds ways to really test your character. I challenged myself to not ask God for anything this month during my prayer time. I was only going to thank Him for the blessings I have and nothing else. Well… I can say I have stuck to my guns and haven’t asked for anything from God, but I have had a rough time thanking Him for the week I’ve had. What I have discovered (just tonight actually) is that there are blessings hidden in life’s struggles. Sometimes its when i am most stressed that I find clarity! I am the type to bottle things up and squash them deep down into my chest until I can no longer breath . I always tell people yes and rarely say no. I take on way to much and have a hard time balancing.
Tonight, however, I am thankful…thankful for the hard times. Weird … I know… but I am embracing the stress! Why you ask? Well, I feel that stress leads you to lean on someone (in my case, God), and leaning on someone gives you freedom. I feel free to admit that I can’t do it all and I am not perfect. I am a wife, working mom, business owner, friend, and daughter. I have lots to juggle and even more I could take on if i allowed myself. After an outrageous fight putting my kids to bed tonight, I sat down at the computer and started reading a friend’s blog. She is a working mom as well and a darn good one at that. Her blog drew me in, and as I began to read, I felt a comfort in knowing we all struggle with the same things. We all want to be the perfect mom, the power house business woman, the best wife, and an amazing chef…but is that realistic? A resounding NO! is my answer. We are human… all we can do is try our best, love our kids to the fullest, and set some boundaries for ourselves. This verse that I came across on my friend’s blog really spoke to me, and maybe it will speak to some of you.